|Saturday, Sept. 06, 2003 || Connecting|
Any who have read me for an extended period of time know of my faith. Though I donít talk about it perhaps as often as some may think I ďshouldĒ, it is very much a part of who I am and everything I do.
One of the things I have tried to create here is a place where I can be totally me. Without excuses. Minus explanations.
For so long I defined myself by my roles. Wife. Mother. Daughter. Business Owner. Pastorís Wife.
I realized I needed space to simply be Nicole.
That isnít always easy for me. I want people to like me. I want them to laugh at my jokes. Be moved by my writing. Interested in my life.
Above all I want them to know that even pastorís wives have quirks and insecurities and struggles and want to laugh and play and sing.
In making a place that is honestly me, my faith is, and always will be, an integral part, because it is an integral part of who I am. And that is simply because, to me, faith isnít just about believing in something.
It is a relationship.
And as in any authentic, intimate relationship, it must include forgiveness and love.
After all, arenít they really interconnected?
I mean, how could I say that I love my husband and not forgive him if he asks?
Probably the hardest thing I have ever done, or do, is to ask for forgiveness from anyone. God included. But I have. And He did.
And I am oh, so grateful.
So not only is that relationship a part of this journey, it is indelibly wrapped up into everything I do, say, am. Even when it is unspoken.
I count it an awesome privelege if in some small way my journey of connecting with God helps me connect with someone out there, or even helps connect them with God.
I am long past the days of trying to tell someone what they havenít asked to hear. But if the questions come, I will give an answer for this part of me that is one role I am humbled and honored to hold.
I want to leave a legacy
from Legacy by Nichole Nordeman
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